Wednesday, November 24, 2010

the earthquake and the tornado

You are the manipulator and I the marionette. With the dancing of your hands, my body moves along gracefully, assuredly with your guidance not to fall. I have learned so much in the last (almost) 30 years, but there is one thing I know to be the most true- without YOU I am nothing. The relationships I have nourished with the people in my life have without a doubt made me who I am, and I would change not a thing. Although there were many times I cried out in fury and disappointment, I know the reasons behind every action were necessary and part of the experience.
I have loved and I have been loved- and for that I am incredibly thankful.
Almost 6 months ago my life took a turn I was not expecting. A once very happy relationship dissolved and I was heartbroken and lost. But as expected, time has healed the wounds left behind from it and I find myself in a better place. Optimistic at the future and ready to embrace what new challenges I will face.
I had a dream the other night that I was in a classroom and there was an earthquake. Not too long after that the building was swept up and looking out the window I realized I was in a tornado. I know what it means- what it represents. And for you placing "the earthquake" and "the tornado" in my life I am appreciative- hesitant but appreciative.
A new chapter has started. I am going home to enjoy the holidays with my family and friends and will return to Kentucky for another travel assignment. I have fallen in love here, with the weather and the people and the little but big city feel. I have made friendships here in 3 months that would rival those I've had for much longer and I've met people I know will stay in my heart for the rest of my life. I don't know what any of it means, but You, my puppeteer, I will never question.